There is nothing that teaches you more than regrouping after failure and moving on. Yet most people are stricken with fear. They fear failure so much that they fail. They are too conditioned, too used to being told what to do. It begins with the family, runs through school and goes into the business world.
I had no interests. I had no interest in anything. I had no idea how i was going to escape. At least the others had some taste for life. They seemed to understand something that i didnt understand. Maybe i was lacking. It was possible. I often felt inferior. I just wanted to get away from them. But there was no place to go. Suicide? Jesus christ, just more work. I felt like sleeping for five years but they wouldnt let me.