Panics, in some cases, have their uses; they produce as much good as hurt. Their duration is always short; the mind soon grows through them and acquires a firmer habit than before. But their peculiar advantage is, that they are the touchstone of sincerity and hypocrisy, and bring things and men to light, which might have lain forever undiscovered.
No themes are so human as those that reflect for us, out of the confusion of life, the close connection of bliss and bale, of the things that help with the things that hurt, so dangling before us forever that bright hard medal, of so strange an alloy, one face of which is somebody's right and ease and the other somebody's pain and wrong.
And i know you've spent a lifetime trying to protect me from the staggering pain of grief that comes from losing the things and the people and the places you allowed yourself to care about--but guess what, jennika--that's no way to live. as much as it hurts to lose something you love, there's much greater joy in getting to experience it for as long as it lasts.
I think today we've gone so far technologically and also just emotionally and psychologically, i mean there's a lot of crime out there and there's a lot of stuff going on. People don't care that they're going to go to prison. They couldn't give a rat about the repercussions. They go out and they do what they do and they don't care about hurting anyone else.
I think you still love me, but we can’t escape the fact that i’m not enough for you. i knew this was going to happen. so i’m not blaming you for falling in love with another woman. i’m not angry, either. i should be, but i’m not. i just feel pain. a lot of pain. i thought i could imagine how much this would hurt, but i was wrong.
Sometimes i still have american dreams. I mean literally. I see microwave ovens and exercise machines and grocery store shelves with 30 brands of shampoo, and i look at these things oddly, in my dream. I stand and think, "what is all this for? What is the hunger that drives this need?" i think it's fear. Codi, i hope you won't be hurt by this, but i don't think i'll ever be going back. I don't think i can.