I have faith that god will show you the answer. But you have to understand that sometimes it takes a while to be able to recognize what god wants you to do. That's how it often is. God's voice is usually nothing more than a whisper, and you have to listen very carefully to hear it. But other times, in those rarest of moments, the answer is obvious and rings as loud as a church bell.
In time, the hurt began to fade and it was easier to just let it go. At least i thought it was. But in every boy i met in the next few years, i found myself looking for you, and when the feelings got too strong, i'd write you another letter. But i never sent them for fear of what i might find. By then, you'd gone on with your life and i didn't want to think about you loving someone else. I wanted to remember us like we were that summer. I didn't ever want to lose that.
People come, people go ' they'll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favorite book. When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book, complete with new characters and adventures. Then you find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the ones from the past.
The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this goodbye is both a goodbye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come.