Most humbling of all is to comprehend the lifesaving gift that your pit crew of people has been for you, and all the experiences you have shared, the journeys together, the collaborations, births and deaths, divorces, rehab, and vacations, the solidarity you have shown one another. Every so often you realize that without all of them, your life would be barren and pathetic. It would be death of a salesman, though with e-mail and texting.
Why are you standing here, charlie brown?" "i'm waiting for that little red-haired girl to walk by... I'm going to say hello to her and ask her how she's enjoying her summer vacation, and just sort of talk to her... You know..." "you'll never do it, charlie brown... You'll panic..." "besides that, she's already walked by!
Too many vacations that last too long, too many movies, too much tv, too much video game playing - too much undisciplined leisure time in which a person continually takes the course of least resistance gradually wastes a life. it ensures that a person's capacities stay dormant, that talents remain undeveloped, that the mind and spirit become lethargic and that the heart remains unfulfilled.
Longing surged up within me. i wanted it. oh god, i wanted it. i didn't want to hear jerome chastise me for my "all lowlifes, all the time" seduction policy. i wanted to come home and tell someone about my day. i wanted to go out dancing on the weekends. i wanted to take vacations together. i wanted someone to hold me when i was upset, when the ups and downs of the world pushed me too far. i wanted someone to love.